Years ago, I was in so much pain I was ready to end it all.

As a last resort, I signed up for a weekend counselling retreat.

One of the first assignments during the retreat was to find a quiet and private space and write non-stop for 2 hours.

We were instructed to write down all the pain we felt, all the neglect, the betrayal, the injustice, etc.

I felt so empowered. I had so much to write about. And I was ready to write it all down!

I was on fire. It all just flowed out of me onto the page with ease.

As I wrote, tears streamed down my face. I could barely see. But I kept writing.

I wanted to get it all down on paper. All of it. It's like I had been waiting for this moment to show the world how bad things had been.

Then, about 20 minutes into writing, it all stopped.

My tears dried out.

My mind went blank.

And I didn't feel any more pain.

In the blink of an eye, it had all been wiped away.

I felt nothing.

In the quietness, I felt a presence in the room and heard myself say, "Not now!"

It was not a good time! My heart was deeply set on writing it all down.

"No! Not now!" I shouted.

And that is when I realized that is what I had always done.

When God (or Spirit, or Universe, or Energy - call it what you want) stepped in to wipe away my pain or dry my tears, my response was always, "Not now!"

Now was never a good time to end the suffering.

I always wanted a little more time to dwell on it, process it, or try to figure it out.

Can you relate? Do you remember desperately wanting to hold on to your pain? Do you remember ever wanting to suffer a bit longer?

I'd love to hear your story.

Much love,
Marie-Josee
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